Whenever i hear or see the word College, the first thing the comes in my mind is that .. INDIVIDUALITY. why so? simply because, You wont be spoon fed anymore .. professors/mentors wont chase after you anymore hence, you'll be the one to do the other way 'round. compared to high school, teachers are nicer and friendlier i guess. i really dont know but .. im scared to the things that might happen and will happen in the near future. 
Who knows? i might have mentor/s who seem/s "very strict" and very demanding when it comes to requirement's due. I might meet some new "Frenemies" on my way. or worse .. i might discover something that will surely break me into pieces.. pieces that might shatter down into gazillion more pieces. You see, when you're used to something and you've tasted it that often .. you might look for it.. in its absence.
Im scared that i might fail. Im scared that i might not succeed. Im scared that i might not be THAT competent anymore. There are a lot of things that im scared about. Im scared yet i still want to be strong.
you're probably wondering why am i scared of a lot more things. the reason is .. im a type of individual who gets scared of new things that's why i dont try new products or methods that are newly introduced me. Im alienated by these new things that i've never tried before yet. Come to think of it .. When you're in college, the population gets doubled or tripled or maybe quadrupled in the fact that your boundaries also widen itself. and out of thousand individuals only few are being chosen on the top and be distinguish from the rest of the average thinkers. The competition tightens even more. Thousands aim for the best but Few are granted to be one of the rest. I wonder if I'll be with the best or with the average still? these thoughts linger in my mind everyday as the calendar count itself off. who will i be?
There are also things in my self that i wanted to change. I wanted to change for the better in my life's next chapter. I wanted to do BETTER in my studies, To surpass what I've been in high school. I wanted to be a little bit NICER. 
Im not saying that i was mean in high school. i really dont know what i was if you'll categorize me. im not sure what i'll be in the next page of my existence but what i want is .. I want to show the world the other side of me. The softer probably. I want to be the total different person of what i was before. the better to be exact
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