So since alam ko naman pano to mag e-end, I'll spill my anniversary plans sana. I planned this months and months ago and You'll prolly dont believe me if I tell you felt excited about the whole thing. Cuz first, it'll be out of my three ex-es my first ever REALationship that lasted for a year so I made it sure that I prepared enough budget to spend for it
here is actually the list of the things I planned to do
The first words says 'Post its'
Did you know that I actually wanted to fill your motorcycle w/ post its? just like this one
and then fill it with 'happy anniversary' 'iloveyous' and the reasons why i love you but no.. it's over and I'm kinda sad that It wont even happen even in my dreams any longer. It's done
The second one says 'Cake' I actually wanted it on a chocolate huge cake with huge texts that say 'happy anniversary && I love you' but then again.. it wont happen anymore.. just like what I thought the whole day
then the third text says 'pics on a scrapbook'
I actually wanted to gather all the pics we had since high school. How you came up to our section's classroom door and handled me a cadburry with flowers. I actually wanted to develop those pics especially those dates we had.. those funny make faces we did.. but it hurts now, I'm so.. sad that I wont be able to do it anymore. It's sad cuz I could still remember how you were really happy when I told you 'Yes' during our recollection day at claret church. It's sad that you think of me of that way now..
and I'm actually really crying over in front of my computer as I type this. It hurts me. Maybe sa school, you'll find me okay but deep down, inside me.. I'm not. Really. I swear. I may appear really stubborn, bitchy and tough girl you knew but deep inside.. deeep down.. I'm still that girl you fell in love with. I am. and I'll always be that one who punches your shoulder when I hear your corny jokes.. how I feel those tingling feeling whenever you kiss my forehead. But it's over. and I understand that
The fourth one is actually.. 'customize varsity jackets'
I actually plan to have a custom-made varsity jacket. that one you could use whenever you bike roam around town w/ your motor. Yes, I did. I actually save 2 thousand php cash for all these things. and I plan to buy it the other day but, when I saw you with that same girl I warn you about.. It felt different. Im sorry. I know you told me not to feel jealous nor doubt you.. but I can't help it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I bitch around the phone and told you how malandi you are. Im sorry for the harsh words I told you.
but Really, remember when I hang up the phone every now and down? that was the time that I cried, I tried stopping it .. but it wont budge. Im sorry.
and you're right. Wala talagang tumatagal saken cuz of my attitude. and I just want to tell you, your wrong..when you told me you'll never be just like those guys who came to my life and just crush me within.. you're just like one of them.
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