For your information, I didn't plan out to be a college student taking up nursing .I actually thought it was one of the silliest course a shallow person with no dreams would take. but, guess where i am standing right now?.. im right in front of a cross road with a determination to become a fully-pledge Nurse. Ironic isn't it? back then when i was in Kindergarden, i wanted to be a lawyer .. a kind of lawyer who fights for what is right and is in the side of nothing but right. regardless of what status you have in the society neither the amount of money you have in your bank account. who can't blame me for desiring such profession? back then, i was naive and always looking up for those people who were brave enough to fight what is right. a kind of person who fears no one but God himself..but as time goes by, that dream slowly faded .. it was in grade 6 that i've realized it would be a long rough journey to achieve what i wanted ... it requires time, patient and a whole-lot of inspiration to bagged along the way so you could reach far enough to satisfy your starving desire for success . I dont want to wait 8 long-doubtful-years just to get my first job. I dont even have enough patience to go to school that long. HEY! dont get me wrong, i love school but 8 years stuck with it? Na-uh! not this kinda girl.so, when i entered high school. i thought, i wont take the same course that my cousins and everyone else i knew in the family were taking. i dont like to be labeled as "YET-ANOTHER-NURSE-TO-BE". i wanted to be different and ended up with a conclusion, as a result of my ambitiousness and vainness, that i want to be a Broadcaster or probably a Journalist or even as aWriter. It was one of my frustration -- TO WRITE.
but then again, i came to the point of my life that i realized and reflected if ever i'll choose that path it wont guarantee myself to have such stable life for my future considering the numbers of the more talented writers and more competent speakers than i do .. i lost my confidence and the flame to pursue that path. first thing's fist, what do i wanted to be? TO BE RICH. that was the main goal and i could not see myself being rich in that profession not unless if i actually go to manila and attend one of the best schools there. then that may be a huge impact of chance for me to climb up.sadly, in the social triangle .. i was born to be in the middle class with a normal parents and a normal house. typical parents who desires for me to get high grades enough to land me a job.
Right before graduation,Dad encouraged me ..or more like asked me to follow my Aunt's footstep to be a nurse. She was actually my inspiration when i was younger. i told myself i wanted to be just like her .. to be a straight A student and be as determine as her.
At first, Nursing did not yet appeal to me. i never imagine myself to wear that all-white gown with a cap on top of their head, and a syringe on their hand. i never picture out myself injecting or even assisting doctors and be facing one of my biggest fear -- BLOOD. but look where am i now .. im a nursing student apparently. a course i said i'll never take. i guess, you can not say something and end it there because most likely you'll end up swallowing every bits of everything you said you wont take or do.
Now, at present i find myself wanting to be a nurse with prestige and pride. a nurse who would save countless-lives. weird isnt it? its like a year ago that im having a disgust towards this course. but here at present, i am now determine to finish this course and make not only myself but also my parents and relatives proud of what i will and should achieve. whenever i see, nurses with their caps and badges .. i always tell my self that "someday, i'll be just like that. all pretty and tidy in a nightingale gown". I know there are a plenty of Nurses out there who desires the same as i do. i know in this world competency is a requirement and im so gonna work my ass for this. i mean .. WHO DOESN'T?
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