Hello, Here am I again. I always tend to slack off from studying and blog about random stuffs and emotionally-drain thoughts from my head. Fixed the bridge of my friendshipss last night. Yes, although I dont see the brighter side of it just yet but the bridge has been fixed finally!
I realized that it was just some petty things but you can't just deny the fact that something has changed. I hate to admit it but some mended parts were fixed yet it was like something else was missing. Maybe I'm being delusional again or am I just over-thinking again? Im afraid it's the latter but still thankful that it has been fixed.. somehow
Apart of me, particularly at the back of my head, kicked in to my senses that some 'supposed-delusional thoughts' quote-unquote were right. I just dont like to pin point which but most, if not all, were right. but on the brighter side, atleast it's better off this way.. I guess
Moving on, Finals gonna be on next week and I gotta brace my self for days and days of sleepless nights and endure my self from greater torture walking around like a man-eating zombie. Actually, Im supposed to be studying right now since I had finished working on my so-called 'Study outline' --- where I summarize all my lectures so I wouldn't tire my self scanning on my notes or books anymore. Some lazyass college extraordinaire am I
But instead of working my neurons to memorize and master what I've written, I decided to take a break and here I am right now blogging. Yes of all things, aside from endless time on tweeting about my thoughts, I decided to blog about my recent thoughts.
I lied about not having a blog to my friends. I lied to them, while looking straight in their eyes that I quit blogging. Although, Yes.. I said I quit tumblr but I never told them that I had another hidden blog which is this.
I dont know .. It's just that I feel like I should keep some thing for my self... Alone. It's just that I have the need to isolate what I think and what I do in reality.
Haha! Okay, I sound really weird like a pyshopath-gone-totally-undeniably insane as of the moment but truth be told some times I feel like my friends aren't really friends at all. I suppose I should admit that I overthink on stuffs but .. instincts tell me not to spill everything (although there are things I tell to them but just a minute of what I really wanted to say) to them
I must've gone really mad right now. I should get back studying for Finals. Bye!
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