according to the dictionary it is a
hard to bear; grievous; distressful:
someone asked me on facebook,
"am i being bitter towards my ex?"
then thoughts flooded my mind
am i actually being bitter towards him?
he never actually played with my heart.
he cared for me and loved me like every guys
would do to his girlfriend.
he was stubborn,insensitive and childish
most of the time but he never tried playing with
my heart. he was the usual boyfriend thing
he never left me. I left him because i can't stand
him anymore. i gave up. he thanked me for everything
but here i am, being the bitter ex girlfriend towards him
to be frank, i still care for him but i doubt that
i still feel the same after what he said about me
he called me "feeler" but even though i cried so
many times because of him. i still care. and it sucks
im starting to like someone yet i still can't forget him
he's still there in my mind and in my heart.
this sounds lame but its the truth.
now, i dont know what to act anymore.
the whole time in school i always avoid him.
i dont know neither what to do when he's around.
we always had this awkward looks from each other
with awkward silence between us
we would accidentally look at each other then
unconsciously looking away or looking down
it was never like in the movies, our story
is tragic, sad and .. lonely.
it was never like in the television nor in
fairytales. its melodramatic and gives me
heavy feelings inside me.
i was never in a place to rant and complain
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